al - fatihah

assalamualaikum ~ salam jumaat budak-budak :) 

hmmm , seawal pagi tadi bangun lah macam biasa ~ alhamdulillah masih dipilih Allah s.w.t untuk bangun solat subuh =.= walau tengah sakit (demam jee pun ) tapi lahai sengal-sengal badan macam nak patah tulang ni haaa ! 

dalam pukul 9 macam tu , ayah aku bagitahu ''kocah , kawan kocah yang koma tu , dah takda'' ~ innalillah . 

*literally* aku tak kenal secara official pun wan ni ~ wan bisru . aku penah jumpa sekali ja tu pun time dia dengan yasmin , tak salah aku time tu habis tuisyen , tu pun masa form 3 . 

hari keempat dia koma aku sempat lah p tengok tu pun kebetulan ayu nak p tengok , dan kebetulan aku kenal- tak kenal tapi apa salahnya menziarah itu kan dituntut . 

hmm , apa cerita sebenar ni ? yang aku tau lah , hari khamis 23 hb , kira hari last sekolah lah , balik tu kot kalau tak salah aku , dia hantar membe dia , fadzil balik rumah , lepas hantar membe dia , kira dia nak patah balik  ke rumah dia lah tup-tup nak sampai rumah dia dah , ada motor langgar dari belakang , dan doktor sahkan pendarahan dalam otak a.k.a darah beku . 

time aku p tengok tu , dia dok kat ICU , hmm , sedih tengok mak dia , yalah sehari-hari tunggu si anak tu sedar :( , aku p tu pun hari keempat dah . 

semalam ada lagi membe-membe yang p tengok , depa pun bagitau lah dia demam panas suhu badan 44 pastu tekanan darah turun , depa cakap mak dia macam dah redha dengan keadaan si anak macam tu walau masih berharap yang  wan akan  sedar .

tapi hari barakah ni ~ Ilahi menjemput dia terlebih dahulu , yup ! muda memang muda lagi , tapi maut tak kenal usia . 

tulah kita sama-sama doakan dia kembali dengan tenang dan doakan jugak untuk mak ayah dan keluarga dia agar diberi kekuatan dalam tempuh dugaan kehilangan orang tersayang .

tulah yang berlesen tak semestinya selamat , kadang-kadang kita *ciwah, padahal aku tak reti bawak moto pun* tak sempat pun nak langgar orang tapi tup-tup orang yang langgar kita dulu . macam mana pun tulah malang tak berbau , soooo kena selalu beringat lah . 

p/s : wahai penunggang motor , kalau tak sayang nyawa pun tapi ingat lah orang-orang yang tersayang . yang pergi tetap pergi tapi yang masih hidup ni ? subhanallah ~ seksa jiwa raga mak ayah . ingat lah ~assalamualaikum

lets pray ~ we need your helps :) as much

assalamualaikum ~ untuk entry kali ni aku tak share papa pun pasal kenangan mahupun kekawan atau pp lah yang bekaitan pasal post-post sebelum ni . untuk kali ni aku perlukan orang untuk tolong ~ tolong doakan . 

oke i would explain everything , yang mana aku boleh lah ya .

  aku nak mintak tolong semua readers :)

 tolong doakan untuk my kawan nya ayah yang sekarang diuji Allah subhanallah Taala , semoga mereka sekeluarga kuat terima ujian ni , kita doakan hospital dapat segerakan pembedahan yang tertangguh beberapa hari dah , harap jugak operation tu bejalan dengan baik dan Allah akan bagi semangat yang kuat untuk ayah dia fight dengan penyakit tu ,

 for information , 

apa yang di risaukan  sekarang operation tu sangat berisiko 50-50 katanya , kalau selamat pun kemungkinan ayah dia akan lupa everything :( before and after , Subhanallah , cuba bayangkan kalau kita kat tempat dia sekarang ? apa kita rasa ? jadi  kita doakan ya ? sebab ujian Allah tu bersilih ganti , mungkin hari kita belum , tapi dia terlebih dahulu dan mungkin dalam masa yang sama Allah nak tengok kita yang tak diuji ni akan bantu atau tidak , terima kasih ~ semoga Allah membawa doa kita yang tak seberapa ni sebagai amalan timbangan kita kelak ~amin :) 

Allah give us a chance :)

assalamualaikum :) hye \o/ *oke intro yang macam biasa* boringkan ? bosan kan ? meluat kan ? oke terima kasih jugak sebab ATLEAST sudi bertandang :) 

Alhamdulillah yey final dah habis , may God bless us :) dan dan semoga kita semua lulus bagi kesemua subjek ~amin :D 

first of all , nak share dan nak mintak doakan untuk Kor Kadet Polis MRSM Merbok untuk tahun ni :) yey ! kami dapat peluang lagi sekali untuk perfome dan improve yang mana kurang moga-moga kita juara even tak keseluruhan atleast BEBERAPA aktiviti yang kira kami spot lah :) tapi selalunya suma ni akan memihak kat tuan rumah , normal lah kan B.I.A.S >< . tapi nvm kalau ada rezeki Allah , tak ke mana kan ?

Latest :) lepas habis ja exam , kami form-5  kena join satu kem K.E.M.C.U.T.I SPM oke tersangatlah banyak benda+kenangan+masalah and what ever comes through us yeayh  ~ tapi kami tetap berdoa semoga Allah permudahkan apa yang susah , tunjukkan kami apa yang kami tak nampak lagi , dan kuatkan semangat kami untuk belajar menjadi dewasa :)

Macam-macam kami buat time kem tu even sekejap ja sebenarnya kena stay khamis,jumaat,sabtu sekejapkan ? 

oke apa yang kami buat tu ? ? ? kami attend beberapa kelas mengikut subjek tertentu , kami buat meeting homeroom , batch dan kami buat shooting untuk video hari guru ~ terima kasih atas kerjasama semua :) dan apa yang best lagi HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIKGU PUTRA , DANIAL ALIFF dan FAZIAYATUL

SHAHIRA  may God shower you ALL with bless :) 

lain-lain kami macam biasa conquer asrama , bising sana sini buat kerja gila-gila yang memang akan ingat kalau dah keluar nanti :P 

ni time habis meeting batch :)

our morning rollcall akan dibuat kat sini setiap pagi 

at the back our hostel ~ our home  :)

they made my day :) everyday , everywhere we`re together :)

ni budak-budak tarian kadet polis :) pray for us 

ni orang-orang yang sibuk time shooting untuk vid hari guru, macam-macam ada dalam tu pengarah , pelakon , penerbit hahah :) tunggu oke tunggu ><

menyempat ja >< mwhehe

ni time tunggu que sebab ramai dan sangat sesak kat depan tu :)

hye mesa :) *credit oke haha me-ah nie tersangat gemar snap gambar mana tak nya even ustaz nak amik gambar untuk buktikan yg ramai antara kami tak hafaz ayat hafazan form-5 , dia adalah orang paling depan *obvious*  muka dia dalam cam ustaz , haha insta oke ustaz nak insta lettew :P

yeah ! depa ni antara budak `geng teratak` mashaAllah they`re so closed to each other macam ada mak ada ayah ada adik-beradik yang sangat rapat , yaeh ! their life seems complete there

hye :) ppl 

oke ni sara a.k.a siwon haha aku lah yang bagi nama tu sebab dulu-dulu dia ni fan siwon , btw dia ni fanatik gila kat korea , kalau tengok muka dia ingat ja semua muka artis korea . she so awesome :)  klau time assembly aku akan menyeqendeh dekat dia sebab kalau lepak dengan dia memang tak sempat nak lelap , sbb asyik nak chit-chat pasal korea ja . '' kalau ada peluang lhh kan , nak ja aku lambung dia jauh-jauh sampai ke korea tu ''dapat penuh kan impian dia :) hahhaa

yeay ! ni malam last untuk kem cuti , ni time math modern . oke sumpah kami macam bawak badan tapi otak dah dekat rumah . haha macam buang masa tapi sebab keberkatan kami tetap dekat situ . ni hasil kerja nani yang sampai tua baru nak siap kot , TIGA hari dia dok buat benda alah ni sampai lunyai kertas tu . haha oke tahniah nanee :) 

thanks for lending me your EYES haha sebab ears tak boleh kan >< semoga Allah memberkati kita setiap hari-hari kita  :)  

9A+ SPM 2013 

life is amazing , live your life in the right way :)

assalamualaikum ~ salam jumaat :) *semoga dirahmati*  

tadiii , lepas penat menjelajah ke profile-profile twitter orang tetiba muncul satu twit ni pasal blog update :) dengan muka gembira lalu aku pun membukanya :) tahu ? tahu ? entry dia sangat lah membawa seribu satu makna *cewah* 

aku tak sure lah dia ni mix arab ka apa , tapi dia memang obvious arabic , NICE . baca lah benda ni maybe awak-awak pembaca dapat something :) 

nilah arabic tu :) Najua , actually dia 17 tahun , cara dia tulis macam 20 tahun haha matang  ...  dan perfect :) 

Alot of you guys have been asking me, 

Who is he? Is he my bestfriend? Is he my boyfriend?

 Is he my fiance? Is he my gayfriend or is he just a friend?

And, to break the ice, I'm going share a story about who he is, 
how we met, 
and what is going on between us.

I'm not going to be cliche with 'oh we met and fell in love forever love love yaya"
 No, none of that. So don't worry readers. I want to keep it as smooth & simple.

 You see, back then I wasn't someone "good", (not that i'm saying i am now), But let's just say it was my "jahiliah" moment. I went through so much, different kind of people, depression & problems. I didn't know what's the meaning of life. I was lost, in my own world full of sins & deep fool-ness.

I've been through relationships before, ending it and realizing that it was never love with any of them. It was pure imaginary lies of rainbows and unicorns, ended up rains & thunders.
 Let's just say, I've learnt my lesson & decided that relationship is "useless". 

As time flew by, I changed, Alhamdulillah. From the inner faith to the outer faith. I started to learn more about Islam, and slowly trying to dress like a proper muslim. I told myself 

"now or never".

 From that moment, nothing ever felt that right. I felt like I was starting a new life, and it was so beautiful. Happiness was always a friend of mine, Peacefulness was my loyal company. 

And that was, the starting of my Hijrah life.


Well, as you can see from the caption, His name is Syed Faiz Al Hady.

His existence was a gift, and it was a new kind of strange feeling for me.

I got to know Syed Faiz from my very good friend.  I did not hope for anything actually at first, but just the thought of wanting to know who is this guy and what's his story just haunts me everyday.

 I saw him a while back, well ofcourse we were perfect strangers

When I did, I knew this guy was "inviting".

Well, to conclude this,
 I only wanted to be his friend.. but that was before I knew how is he like. 

SKIP.

 And so when we first went out, We just clicked. Not as in a cheesy love first sigh way though.

 But the way he would talk to me, and how he never tries too hard to talk, and how he is not awkward & control macho just wow-ed me.

 Finally, A guy who is not ashamed to just be himself and act like a pure monkey.
 (Thats a bonus)

How we got closer?

He had problems, and so did I. The way we're always there for each other and advise each other about life was the main reason why I cherished his existence. He understands me like no one can, He knows how to calm me down when I'm mad, and he can be a best friend. (and a gay friend) We would talk for hours about the things we never tell anyone, and sometimes argue about the little things. But that what keeps us stronger & closer (like siblings, you know?)

I knew this guy was special, I knew I had to introduce him to my family.. pronto'

So I invited him to visit my family in KL, and he said yes.

You know what's amazing about the trip?

 The fact that my parents love him, My little brothers adore him, my maids suka gedik with him, basically all my family members just love his presence, it was as if he's just a part of our family and that is the most beautiful feeling. To bring a guy home and within a day, your family straightly agrees of him. 

My parents would always call me and ask me if I'm okay with him, Because they knew, see and understand that I need him, And he needs me. We basically need each other, like a kid needs it blanket you see'

I am blessed, since i got to know him.. until today

He changed alot. There were so much progress, and he Alhamdulillah, Reformed to someone better, to a better Syed Faiz. He did it sincerely, and i was very proud to see it with my own eyes. How he wanted to change so much, and he succeed. I will always remember this one night when his mother called me to thank me and told me that i'm the only person that can help him find his happiness, so far. And i was grateful that "us" happened, and i managed to do that.


He would always tell me 

"Najua, one day i'm going to marry you. And i will study and work hard to make it come true"
I lock it my heart, and doa for the same
In Shaa Allah. Amin.

I do love him, i really do. Allah SWT gave me this feeling of loving someone. & I'm blessed that i could share it with him, among the other people that I love in my life.

Not because how he made me feel or the things he did to me.

It's because since the first day i met him until today, I will always pray this to Allah SWT.

"Oh Allah, If he's not meant for me, Please don't bring him near to me. I'm afraid I couldn't handle the pain. Stay him as far as you can, if he's not for me."

Alhamdulillah, until now, he's still in my life.

It doesn't matter if he's mine, or not. He's still in my life. And he is still alive.

And I think, when you love someone, it doesn't matter about their status in your life,
but their happiness matters the most.

And if he's happy with my existence, then i will be happy with him.

8 months gone by, Oh man feels like i've known this guy forever.

And I really am hoping for-ever.

I hope we'll reach until the climate day of our lives, one fine day, In Shaa Allah
not putting high hopes, but i just want to make it clear that he is a soulmate to me. I don't like to the use the term 'boyfriend', because he is more than that cheesy status that people always play around with.

As verily,
Allah Decides, We only Plan.

ni lah entry yang A.W.E.S.O.M.E tu :) yeah ! WE ONLY PLAN , semua baik dan buruk adalah takdir mungkin melalu ujian dengan pengalaman yang ada .

mindset effect the action :******

assalamualaikum~ hye ppl :) 

disebabkan dah kena TWITLIMIT  lalu saya pun mengangkat  kaki menghadap benda-alah ni pulak muehehehe . tadi punya lah sakan dok bermacam-macam dengan afnan syazwan yang sangat annoying tuh , oke hye ~.~ 

oke ! motiff aku bertulis-tulis ni nak cakap pasal mindset ppl . btw relate dengan apa yang aku dah try sepanjang dua hari cuti adalah PUASA *sepanjang tuh , mana tahan ayat macam tu , baru dua hari*  yey ! ~alhamdulillah dah masuk 2nd day puasa kat rumah . *sigh* aku rasa teruk gila dengan mindset kolot aku nih , time kat maktab punya lah takut nak balik puasa kat rumah sebab takut rasa masa bergerak lambat so kita akan rasa puasa tu lama "ohh! tidakk !" , yalah kat rumah bukan sibuk macam kat maktab kan ? tapi sebenarnya tak , mana-mana pun sama cuma niat dan ikhlas nak buat semua tu :) 

jadi , , , ubah lah pemikiran-pemikiran yang boleh buat niat murni kita tak menjadi  , pasang niat betul-betul dan ikhlaskan nak buat semua benda LILLAHITAALA ~ in shaa Allah boleh punya lah . oke thats all salam jumaat :)

comell kan ? :)

assalamualaikum~

happy form-5 *wee*wee

assalamuailakum~ hye \o/ eeeiiuuuu , ya !  stu(dying) , homewor(king) , play(ing) and bla.bla.bla . ya Allah , takutnya nak SPM dah weyh >< tapi main-main ja lagi . kalau nak cakap pasal masa depan dan kaitkan dengan result sekarang oke i would ruin my life~suck >< *sounds make sense* .  semua orang ada impian~angan-angan tapi tak semua orang sedar to become a succed is not as easy as ABC . Dalam usaha tawakal mesti ada , sejauh mana kita belajar , serajin mana pun kita tapi kalau kita tak melutut untuk bersujud dan tadah tangan dengan rendah diri~istighfar , semua yang kita dapat nanti hanya ujian . yup ! kalau kita gagal , orang akan cakap besabar ni ujian , bila kita berjaya orang akan pesan berhati-hati ni satu ujian >< nampak tak ? yup ! lumrah hidup kita memang penuh dengan ujian :) .

SPM- just around the corner =.= , nak sampai ke hari tu YA ALLAH  memang susah , banyak dugaan , tambah-tambah (tujuh belas) remaja lah katakan , ha ! time ni lah masa kita menilai diri kita :) , masa ni kita kena rancang betul-betul , masa ni kena berdoa banyak-banyak dengan harapan we`re on the right track :) relate dengan quote ni

hmmmm , apalah nak jawap time mock interview nanti ? apa nak buat dalam folio kerjaya tu ? oke serious ! menakutkan >< macam takda hala tuju :( how could it happened aisyah ? memang susah lah kalau macam ni *.*  oke lah almost 10.00 o`clock gtg~

semangat gila >< motivate diri sendiri jangan tunggu orang , muhasabah diri kita :)

my class :)

lukisan depan tu by RC`ians 

my lovely-dovely pipah :) who always help me in add math 

haha nampak tak ? nampak tak ? haish ! suka betoi pekena orang time assembly . actually dia tak sedar , siap boleh menari-nari lagi hahaha 

ni aku struggle buat sebelum p pgg add math >< tak tau semangat apa time tu :)
*tulisan memang HODOH

9`A+ NOW OR NEVER ?

oke lastly ! ni my position dalam kelas , heh ! mengadap muka budak-budak RC  yang lawak tak lawak tu  . oke im BIO`S \O/

ASSALAMUALAIKUM~MAY GOD SHOWER US WITH BLESS amin :)