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Alot of you guys have been asking me,Who is he? Is he my bestfriend? Is he my boyfriend?Is he my fiance? Is he my gayfriend or is he just a friend?
And, to break the ice, I'm going share a story about who he is,
how we met,
and what is going on between us.
I'm not going to be cliche with 'oh we met and fell in love forever love love yaya"
No, none of that. So don't worry readers. I want to keep it as smooth & simple.
You see, back then I wasn't someone "good", (not that i'm saying i am now), But let's just say it was my "jahiliah" moment. I went through so much, different kind of people, depression & problems. I didn't know what's the meaning of life. I was lost, in my own world full of sins & deep fool-ness.
I've been through relationships before, ending it and realizing that it was never love with any of them. It was pure imaginary lies of rainbows and unicorns, ended up rains & thunders.
Let's just say, I've learnt my lesson & decided that relationship is "useless".
As time flew by, I changed, Alhamdulillah. From the inner faith to the outer faith. I started to learn more about Islam, and slowly trying to dress like a proper muslim. I told myself
"now or never".
From that moment, nothing ever felt that right. I felt like I was starting a new life, and it was so beautiful. Happiness was always a friend of mine, Peacefulness was my loyal company.
And that was, the starting of my Hijrah life.
Well, as you can see from the caption, His name is Syed Faiz Al Hady.
His existence was a gift, and it was a new kind of strange feeling for me.
I got to know Syed Faiz from my very good friend. I did not hope for anything actually at first, but just the thought of wanting to know who is this guy and what's his story just haunts me everyday.
I saw him a while back, well ofcourse we were perfect strangers
When I did, I knew this guy was "inviting".
Well, to conclude this,
I only wanted to be his friend.. but that was before I knew how is he like.
SKIP.
And so when we first went out, We just clicked. Not as in a cheesy love first sigh way though.
But the way he would talk to me, and how he never tries too hard to talk, and how he is not awkward & control macho just wow-ed me.
Finally, A guy who is not ashamed to just be himself and act like a pure monkey.
(Thats a bonus)
How we got closer?
He had problems, and so did I. The way we're always there for each other and advise each other about life was the main reason why I cherished his existence. He understands me like no one can, He knows how to calm me down when I'm mad, and he can be a best friend. (and a gay friend) We would talk for hours about the things we never tell anyone, and sometimes argue about the little things. But that what keeps us stronger & closer (like siblings, you know?)
I knew this guy was special, I knew I had to introduce him to my family.. pronto'
So I invited him to visit my family in KL, and he said yes.
You know what's amazing about the trip?
The fact that my parents love him, My little brothers adore him, my maids suka gedik with him, basically all my family members just love his presence, it was as if he's just a part of our family and that is the most beautiful feeling. To bring a guy home and within a day, your family straightly agrees of him.
My parents would always call me and ask me if I'm okay with him, Because they knew, see and understand that I need him, And he needs me. We basically need each other, like a kid needs it blanket you see'
I am blessed, since i got to know him.. until today
He changed alot. There were so much progress, and he Alhamdulillah, Reformed to someone better, to a better Syed Faiz. He did it sincerely, and i was very proud to see it with my own eyes. How he wanted to change so much, and he succeed. I will always remember this one night when his mother called me to thank me and told me that i'm the only person that can help him find his happiness, so far. And i was grateful that "us" happened, and i managed to do that.
He would always tell me
"Najua, one day i'm going to marry you. And i will study and work hard to make it come true"
I lock it my heart, and doa for the same
In Shaa Allah. Amin.
I do love him, i really do. Allah SWT gave me this feeling of loving someone. & I'm blessed that i could share it with him, among the other people that I love in my life.
Not because how he made me feel or the things he did to me.
It's because since the first day i met him until today, I will always pray this to Allah SWT.
"Oh Allah, If he's not meant for me, Please don't bring him near to me. I'm afraid I couldn't handle the pain. Stay him as far as you can, if he's not for me."Alhamdulillah, until now, he's still in my life.It doesn't matter if he's mine, or not. He's still in my life. And he is still alive.And I think, when you love someone, it doesn't matter about their status in your life,
but their happiness matters the most.
And if he's happy with my existence, then i will be happy with him.
8 months gone by, Oh man feels like i've known this guy forever.And I really am hoping for-ever.
I hope we'll reach until the climate day of our lives, one fine day, In Shaa Allah
not putting high hopes, but i just want to make it clear that he is a soulmate to me. I don't like to the use the term 'boyfriend', because he is more than that cheesy status that people always play around with.
As verily,
Allah Decides, We only Plan.
ni lah entry yang A.W.E.S.O.M.E tu :) yeah ! WE ONLY PLAN , semua baik dan buruk adalah takdir mungkin melalu ujian dengan pengalaman yang ada .
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